i have not blogged since february. a lot has happened since then, and i don't know if i will take the time to write about all of it right now, but there are a few things i have been learning lately that i need to write about.
first of all, God has been teaching me so much since this past summer and all semester. i am learning to rely on Him more and more each day, and realizing that even though i fail over and over and over again, even if it's with the same thing every day, God still loves me more than i can comprehend. He loves with an everlasting love, and it is more than amazing to know that He is always there for me no matter what. one of my very very good friends here at college, hannah, got dismissed from the school and had to go home in october because of some things that happened that i won't discuss right now. that was really hard for me for awhile, because i relied on her to vent about nursing classes (since we were both nursing majors), and just other things in general. she was my room leader last year, and we really bonded and became very close friends. when i found out she had to leave, i was mad at God for taking her away from me. but looking back on it now, even a month later, i realize that i have come to rely on God much much more, and not so much on other people. even though talking things out with people and telling your problems to people you care about is a wonderful thing, i know that at that point in my life, i was relying on others way more than i was relying on God. my prayer life and devotions were really struggling, and even though i'm not faultless at it now, i can honestly say that i have been casting all of my burdens on the Lord since that point.
another amazing thing that i learned this morning...
well i didn't really learn it for the first time, but it is one of those things that it's good to have a refresher about every once in awhile. i was reading in Romans 5 about God's grace and His sacrifice for me, a sinner, totally undeserving of even a second glance from Him. some verses that really stuck out to me as i was reading:
6-8: For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly. For one will scarcely die for a righteous person—though perhaps for a good person one would dare even to die— but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
18-20: Therefore, as one trespass led to condemnation for all men, so one act of righteousness leads to justification and life for all men. For as by the one man’s disobedience the many were made sinners, so by the one man’s obedience the many will be made righteous. Now the law came in to increase the trespass, but where sin increased, grace abounded all the more.
and one more thing...
i started going to clinicals at the hospital two weeks ago, and this is quite a nerve wracking experience the first time. i had no idea how i was going to get through it, not knowing what to expect. i was extremely nervous my first day, and i was completely freaking out until i realized that my help comes from God. i cannot do anything in my own right. sure, i can try to do things myself, but without God's help i will fail. Psalm 121:2 says "my help comes from the Lord which made heaven and earth". the very God that created this universe is on MY side. He wants to help ME. He cares about MY needs and MY life. how amazing is that? i'm so glad i have a relationship with the God who is always there for me when i need Him, and when i think i don't and start going my own way. He is the God of all comfort and peace, and His steadfast love is never-ending.
i'm going to try to update this once a week now, probably on saturdays.
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